Who am I? The eternal question. I know who I am. My true me is my higher sense of self. Who is she….. She is 135lbs. She is a health nut. She is an avid runner, a triathlete, an ultramarathoner. She is a nutritionist. She is a motivater, a leader. She is an artist who expresses herself through the medium of music through singing and the guitar. She is a fan of hiking, camping, climbing, and crosscrountry skiing. She lives for weekend outdoor adventures. She is a hippy, holistic environmentalist. She is a democratic compassionate soul “I am my brothers keeper”. She is an advocate for life and for children. She is extremely spiritual and enjoys exploring her own ever expanding spirituality. She is an amazingly loving mother, a good teacher and devoted to her childs development of his own self. She is an advocate of organic gardening and farming and dabbles a little a garden of her own although she is too busy to fully commit to it. She is an advocate of the raw food movement. She doesn’t force her son to eat raw but she does moniter his food and does her best to feed him a well rounded diet of natural, organic, healthy, sugar free foods. His morning apple juice is always fresh squeezed. She is competitive and motivated but enjoys the competition much more than any victory and is fine with any “place” in the race as long as she has done her best. She is confident and while she is an introvert and willing to accept others even if thier values differ she is also willing to share her own if she feels the need to. She is a light eater. She loves chocolate and considers it an essential part of a well balanced diet. She hates pop and artificial sweetener. She will drink coffee but only on occasion as a treat. In general she tries to avoid caffeine because she knows it is just borrowed energy that she will have to pay back later with an energy crash and she would rather enjoy the energy that a healthy well balanced diet provides. She enjoys yoga, both the physical and the spiritual aspect of it but does it mostly to work on her flexibility. She is not a good wife because she never intended to be a wife, she intended to be a partner. She is hopeful, positive and full of life. She sees opsticals as opportunities. And she wears her battlescars with pride. She is intuitive and spontaneous. She is complex but at the same time pretty simple. She loves love, she loves life. If she had to describe herself in one word it would most likely be bohemian. Her favorite movie is Moulin Rouge. Her favorite song is just about anything acoustic. And while she rarely drinks alcohol her favorite passtime (away from her kid) is sitting in a small bar with a group of friends, sipping on a glass of wine or a hefeweisen and listening to some local artist or local band, while discussing life, love or just planning the next hiking trip or trip to the zoo with the kids. That, for the most part, is who I am.
My depression exists when I am not living in unison with my higher sense of self or my essential self.
I am a mother, an athlete, a singer and guitar player, a health nut, an outdoor enthusiast, a compassionate bleeding heart liberal and proud of it. Save the whales, save the rain forests, save all the children and end world hunger while living a bohemian life full of love.
Live like that and depression will be a thing of the past
